An Honest Look at Where I’m At + Where I’m Headed
MARCH 25, 2021
I’ve been a bit quiet on the blog and Instagram over the last few weeks resting in the stillness and marinating on my thoughts. I’ve been asking myself a lot of questions about what I want to do, why I want to share any of it and how the future looks.
There are a lot of people on social media sharing amazing content as they pursue their design dreams and, well, it’s hard not to compare.
I’m in the midst of a life pivot, a crisis of sorts somewhere between quarter and mid-life. Much of my identity in the last 6+ years has been one of a full-time working mom trying to do and be all the things. So, when my husband and I made the BIG decision at the end of last year for me to leave my corporate job to spend more time with our kids and explore a career I was excited about, I felt a bit lost once the adrenaline of such a big leap wore off.
I’ve found myself somewhere in between wanting to go all out towards my dreams (and part of that is figuring out exactly what those are!) and simply taking a step back and resting for a moment after a busy and, honestly, draining last few years. I can’t help but think about what people expect of me and what I expect of myself. I’m a hard worker. I’m an achiever. I should be working towards big goals, right?
But, I have to remind myself, I took this leap to enjoy more of life, time with my kids and husband, and to do something I’m excited about. Putting so much pressure on it takes away so much of the fun. I prayed for years and years to be able to be home with my babies more and now that I’m here, I find myself saying, “OK, what’s next?!” I need to rest in being in the midst of an answered prayer instead of being so focused on the next thing that I don’t enjoy this season.
So where do I sit today? I’m still figuring it out. What I know is I love helping people curate a home they love, where real life and beauty can co-exist, and do so in an affordable way. I love home. I love design. I love hospitality and finding the perfect gift for the people in your life. So, I’m going to share those things as long as it’s still fun and fulfilling.
I’m a mom. A wife. A design junkie. A hostess. An INFJ to the core. I spend approximately $2,321 on kid’s snacks each week, clean the kitchen 7 times a day and am learning (trying to learn?) home doesn’t have to look perfect 100% of every day to be perfect. I don’t have it all figured out but I appreciate you being here as I share more of the things I love and hope you love them too.
In honor of enjoying this season, here are some real-life images from the last few weeks.